today...

Today Lyza will wake up and the first thing she will say in her monitor is "Mom, did I do good sleepers?." She will inform me that she wants to wear a dress today, (Shocking) not a skirt because skirts don't twirl as well as dresses do. She will want cereal for breakfast but get frustrated when I don't fill the bowl as full as daddy does. Today Lyza will play in her room for at least an hour talking to all of her "imaginary friends/audience" She will ask each of them questions and then answer her own questions in different voices. Lyza will ask for bubble gum from my bag at least 5 times before the clock strikes 10:00 am. Today Lyza will run to the "potty" all by herself and then shout to me "Mom, I went to the potty...I had that feeling." When I give Lyza her lunch plate today (which is, at her request, usually a burrito and carrots) she will ask me "Mom, are carrots healthy?" and when I reply yes, she will say "Are they Very, Very Healthy?" We will go through each item on her plate in this manner. Today Lyza will give me a hug and a kiss and say, "Your my best friend mom." Today Lyza will get mad at me because I won't let her do something and she will say, "Fine, then I am not going to be your best friend anymore." She will run to the garage door every time I open it during the day and scream, "Daddy's Home, Daddy's Home." Today Lyza will go out to the shoe rack in the garage and straighten up all of her shoes so they are in a nice straight line (a bit OCD). She will beg and beg and finally win out and get to watch a show or movie of her choice. Today Lyza will pinch, kiss, pull, rub, and even on one occasion lick her baby brothers cheeks. Today I love Lyza more than I have ever loved her before.

Today Seth will be an angel! He will kick his legs and arms so fast when I come to get him out of his bed. He will want to eat every 3 hours on the minute, he has a great internal clock. Today Seth will not be able to fall asleep for his nap until I put his favorite blue and brown blanket right next to his face. Today Seth's face will light up the second he sees Lyza even though he knows that his cheeks will be pinched, kissed, pulled, rubbed, and on occasion licked. Today Seth will lay right below my chin on my chest. This is "our" spot...we fit together like a puzzle on "our" spot. Today Seth will almost be able to roll to his stomach. He will try and try but he just won't be able to get that last arm out of the way. Today Seth will only cry once or twice. He will "belly laugh" when I tickle the sides of his tummy. Today I love Seth more than anyone could ever love a baby.

Today Steven will wake up happy. He will get to work early and he will get home late. Today Steven's cell phone will ring no less than 40 times. Today when Steven gets home from work he will spend every second with Lyza connected to him. He will put Lyza on his shoulders and go and check on his garden. Today Steven will say "Can I call you right back" whenever I try to talk to him on his phone. (Remember he has 39 other calls he has to get to.) Today Steven will tell me how much he loves our children. He will watch the SYTYCD finale with me and pretty much be dead on with his opinions of each dance. Today Steven will make fun of how slow I walk when we go on a walk around the neighborhood. Today I love Steven more than I thought I could ever love a person.

Today I will make a list of all of the things that "have to get done." Today I will kiss Seth over 100 times and rock him to sleep for every nap...you can't spoil a 3 month old can you? Today I will call and talk to one of my sisters. Today I will feel guilty because I have like 10 different posts that I want to put on my blog, but just can't seem to get to them. I will try on at least 3 different outfits and then get frustrated because nothing fits after having a baby. Today I will regret when I get upset and frustrated with Lyza. I remember after the fact that she is only 3 years old and for the most part a well behaved girl. Today I will worry if I am giving Seth enough to eat. This is always a worry for me when I nurse my babies. Today I will listen outside Lyza's bedroom door while she plays in her own little world. I will not be able to keep from smiling as I listen to the things she says. Today I will miss my husband. Today I will wonder what I want to be when I grow up. Today I will be thankful.